Hello There :)

WOW!! Now I really have been slacking on writing on my Blog. Last time I wrote was around Thanksgiving lol.

But even though this is late... I hope all you had a terrific Christmas and New Years! I had a good Christmas. Got a lot of good things. And New Years was pretty fun. Hung out with some ppl. Hadn't had that fun in a while.

On the 4th of January I believe, when our Church Guys came over they brought a girl with them to meet me. Her name was Rachel. She's super nice. But she wanted to see if I'd like to start going to the Singles Ward with her. And I decided to cuz it would be good for me. But two days later she came back with two other girls that are in Relief Society and talked with me. We had a good talk. They was at my house for maybe an hour or so. I liked them. They were also really nice. That friday Rachel had invited me to go to a girl's night with her with some of her friends. That was a lot of fun. It's sad but I've never had a "Girls Night" before. That meant a lot to me that she invited me. Than Sunday she picked me up and we went to Singles Ward together. I enjoyed that :).

I was pretty nervous and pretty much scared to go to the Singles Ward. But it turned out to be just like regular church but with just young ppl. Sad to say, after that Sunday of going... I haven't went since. I really need to. It's just been hard finding a way to get there. Cuz for one I don't know anybody besides Rachel and I'm worried she might get sick of me wanting her to sit by me most of the time. I just feel comfortable around her. Meeting new ppl is hard for me. It's not that I can't met new ppl, it's just I am too shy. I don't wanna feel like I don't belong there, like I'm out of place being there, ya know what I mean? But I know I need to go so I can eventually meet some good friends. Because I really need some good friends in my life. Haven't had those in such a long time. But not only good friends but one that are a good influence on me.

But I hope Rachel and I can start hanging out more. I'd really like that. I need to get out of the house more. I can't really drive long distances cuz we don't have car insurance right now and I'd be in a whole lotta trouble if I got pulled over. That's another reason why I haven't went to Singles Ward for a while. But, hopefully things will turn out being friends with Rachel. Dunno how much fuller my bowl of disappointment can get. It's scary making new friends when all of your old friends treat me the way that they did. I'm always worried that making new friends is just setting myself up for more disappointment.

I'm trying to be positive though. Not everyone is the same, I need to really realize that and keep that in my head. So I'm gonna give Singles Ward a good solid chance and just see what happens. I'm hoping it'll be a good change for me. And plus I'm hoping going to SW that it will not only help me meet new friends but only boost my self confidence up. Cuz I really need that to get boosted up. That would be so nice.

Not too much has happened since I last wrote on here. That's pretty much why I haven't wrote on here very much since November. But maybe things will look up and get interesting and exciting. :)

I'll try and write a lil bit more, if more stuff start happening more lol. Nice bloggin' for ya. See ya. :)